Much like my goals for the year, I had a difficult time finding one word to encompass what I wanted to direct my energy towards in 2020. There isn’t one set thing I want to push all my energy towards, but rather lots of small things I want to incorporate into my routine. When I thought about why I wasn’t already doing these small things the issue came down to simply not giving these tasks attention.
So for 2020 my word of the year is ATTENTION. I want to spend this year really focusing on where I am placing my attention, why am I placing it there, and is that serving me in a positive way. My hope is that I’ll be able to determine what is a good use of my time and what’s just an attention black hole. I want to weed out the black hole activities and replace them with better uses of my attention – things that feed me either spiritually, emotionally, physically, or even financially.
I know right off the top of my head I watch a lot of TV just to veg out, not to actually be on top of a story line for a specific program. A better use of that time could be meditating, doing a face mask, stretching, reading, or journalling – all things I want to do with regularity but don’t devote my attention to.
Another layer I wanted to incorporate into this word of the year project is working on being present in the moment as that certainly pertains to where I’m placing my attention. I think I’m actually pretty go about being present most of the time, but there’s always room for improvement.
My biggest downfall in this realm is always thinking about my drive home. I live about 40 minutes away from the area where I like to shop, eat out, drink, and generally hang out with my friends. 40 minutes might not be a long drive for some of you, but I detest driving so its an eternity for me. I frequently find myself dreading my ride home when I’m out with friends, even if we are in the middle of having a great time. I know I need to come to terms with the fact that this distance is not changing for at least another couple years, but it’s going to take some work on my part to fully accept it. The first step could be to not ruin what should be fun days with friends fretting about a commute.
While “attention” might not be the most inspirational choice for my word of the year I think it will make for a very interesting choice when I take the time to analyze what exactly I’m doing with my time. I’m really looking forward to re-examining this post next year and seeing what changes I’ve been able to make.